Eden is feeling better today but i still kept her home to be on the safe side. She took a 3 hour nap yesterday which tells me her body is still working overtime to heal . Mrs. Russell called to check on Eden yesterday which is just so sweet and she told me that the kids are missing Eden and asking about her. She is so lucky to be surrounded by such amaizing people. Eden Misses you all very much and cant wait to come back! My hope is she will go back tomorrow because it will only be a half day for her with clinic in the afternoon. Thanks Nurse Mary for calling to check on her! I am hoping her counts will be coming up by tomorrow but who knows.. I have given up on trying to predict what they will do. Yesterday while giving her the shot that helps to bring her white count up we had a little mishap. the plastic cap that attaches the needle to the syrange was defective and while i was pushing the meds they came apart and sprayed Neupogen all over both of us.. i was afraid to give her another shot because i dont know how much of it she got. oh well.....
I wanted to share something i found on another website. It is very insitful:
The Strength of an Egg by Juliet Freitag.
Parents of children with cancer, or really any serious condition, are often referred to or viewed as having strength "like a rock." Albiet flattering,it isn't quite true. It is more like the strength of an egg. An egg, you ask? Yes! If you'll think about it, you'll see my point. An egg has a polished, smooth outer appearance, with no cracks or weak spots visible. It seems almost inconceivable that the inside might not be so smooth or solid. Most children, at some point are shown the famous egg trick. An egg set at just the right angle can withstand enormous amounts of pressure and cannot be cracked or broken. Yet the same egg, tapped gently at an ever slightly different angle, will break. The contents, once so neatly concealed, will come spilling out. The no longer perfect shell will be crushed. It looks so fragile that it seems inconceivable that it ever held any strength. A rock, on the other hand, is solid all the way through. To break it is almost impossible. If you succeed, you will find that there is nothing inside but more rock. It takes a lot more than pure hardness to hold the hand of hope. Parents of [medically fragile] children are not solid all the way through. We hurt, we fear, we cry, we hope. It takes a very careful balancing act to keep the shell from being shattered. "Balancing an egg" while running a household, going for doctors' visits and hospital stays, keeping the family together, and holding on to the constantly unraveling ties of your sanity can be very tricky indeed! Occasionally, the angle will be off and the shell will break, shattering hope and all the neatly secured appearances of a truly fragile existence. Unlike Humpty Dumpty, though, parents of [medically fragile] kids will pick themselves up and put themselves back together again.