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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Gods Children

I would like to share a story with you about a conversation i had last night that changed everything for me forever.

Eden and I were driving to get food and she looked and me and said Mom i remember when i was having Chemo and one night at Dad's Riley was very upset and crying because he was afraid i wouldn't make it through the chemo. I said what do you mean you wouldn't make it? She said you know mom "pass away" I said oh ok go on. She said i had to go into his room and tell him it was ok and that i was ok and he should go to sleep. Then she said something that rocked me to my core. Mom, you know i am not worried but if things get worse we might have to start to worry. I lost my breath and was unable to speak. i am barely able to keep myself from falling down the rabbit hole, what will i do if i know have to worry that she is understanding to much of what is going on?? AND this is where everything changed........... She said Mom I am not afraid to go to Heaven! And she began to tell me all the wonderful things in Heaven such as you can eat anything you want and you can drive at any age and did i know that there are cool games and the best Zoo and food there that we don't have here and best of all there are no rules! She said that when God was making her she took a sneak peek around and tried really hard to remember everything she saw so she could tell me about it when she was old enough to talk. WOW!!

For the past two years i have wondered if my purpose on this earth was to be her mother and help and support her though this difficult time. Then last night i was forced to rethink everything. Has God been preparing her for this life from day one? Did he give her images of Heaven to keep her from fearing Death? Am i really helping and supporting her through this difficult time or is she helping and supporting me thought it? Is this my purpose on earth or hers?

During this conversation i mentioned that Christi may get to go to Heaven soon and her response was : Mom, She is soooo Lucky! Mom, Do you think that Jaret and Ian have met yet? Mom, Did you know that Pet Heaven is just next door to People heaven so they can visit whenever they want?

I never want to say goodbye to my sweet girl and i will fight for her life for as long as it is in her best interest but if the day comes when i must say goodbye I now know that she will not be afraid and therefore i will not be afraid for her!

We have had to say goodbye to one of the strongest worriers we know this week and it was terribly painful to do because we will miss her so very much. It has made facing Edens current scans so much harder knowing they will tell us a story we may not want to hear.

Thank you for listening to me ramble!

Lisa

6 Comments:

At 1:22 PM, Blogger Jan Wilder said...

Hi Lisa,
My name is Jan Wilder and I am one of the Thomas Team prayer warriors. I have been following Eden's story from posts on Christi's site. This is an AWESOME story from Eden. I really think God gives these AMAZING kids an awareness to help make things easier for them and in turn easier for you as well. He gives them strength and wisdom that no healthy person could ever dream to have. They have the ability to touch lives and to make such a diffence even if they only have a short time to do it. I have met a few of these amazing "Angels" including Christi and my life has been so blessed by them. My heart breaks for Angela, Shayne, Shayla and their family and friends. I think Eden is right and Christi is wonderfully lucky to be in such a special place. Please know that I will continue to keep Eden and all of you in my prayers. She is an adorable little girl. You are blessed to be able to care for her in this life!
Love, hugs and prayers,
Jan

 
At 6:41 AM, Blogger Lisa said...

Wow, Eden is such a bright little girl...
And i'm sure your mouth dropped and you couldnt speak as she told you all about heaven. She is such a smart and brave little girl.

We both are fighting the good fight,
Except in your situation, its HER who's fighting, and You're the one whos in shock, disbelief, etc etc etc, But, I Know you'll never leave her side...and in my situation its ME who's fighting, and my son has to sit there in disbelief, shock, nervousness, etc...but he too is fighting along with me and will never leave my side.

Alot of people have told me that CANCER Is rought on patients young and old, but in reality, CANCER is rough on everybody, Patients, friends of patients, Family of patients, etc.

It's not a "lone" battle,
It's a team thing...

DON'T EVER GIVE UP EDEN!!!
YOU'RE AMAZING!!!
ZACH AND I LOVE YA,
YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ARE IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS DAILY....

GOD-BLESS,
LISA & ZACH...

P.S.
Thank you so much Lisa, for signing my guestbook...on my caringbridge site.

IF you or your family,
ever need someone to talk to,
Someone to vent to,
Someone to cry to,
Someone to just listen to...
whatever,
If you or your family needs anything, let me know.

As you read, I'm fighting ALL (Acute lymphoblastic leukemia) but found Non hodgkins lymphoma in 2001-2003. As of today, My ALL isn't getting any better, nor any worse. In April-July, my cancer had metastisized to behind my left eye, down my spine and in the spinal fluid, which caused several herniated and slipt discs, It is now also in my stomach/abdomen. 12 lymphnodes are affected in my abdomen, and the lining of my stomach is also affected.

BUT, WE WILL KEEP FIGHTING!
Regardless of what God's plan for Eden And I, If he wants us to come back up to our home in heaven, so be it. But, if not, Thats fine too.

I'm not afraid to die,
I'm afraid of leaving my son!!

sorry this got so long,
thanks again!!!

www.caringbridge.org/visit/lisaforss
zachandme2001@hotmail.com

 
At 6:42 AM, Blogger Lisa said...

Wow, Eden is such a bright little girl...
And i'm sure your mouth dropped and you couldnt speak as she told you all about heaven. She is such a smart and brave little girl.

We both are fighting the good fight,
Except in your situation, its HER who's fighting, and You're the one whos in shock, disbelief, etc etc etc, But, I Know you'll never leave her side...and in my situation its ME who's fighting, and my son has to sit there in disbelief, shock, nervousness, etc...but he too is fighting along with me and will never leave my side.

Alot of people have told me that CANCER Is rought on patients young and old, but in reality, CANCER is rough on everybody, Patients, friends of patients, Family of patients, etc.

It's not a "lone" battle,
It's a team thing...

DON'T EVER GIVE UP EDEN!!!
YOU'RE AMAZING!!!
ZACH AND I LOVE YA,
YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ARE IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS DAILY....

GOD-BLESS,
LISA & ZACH...

P.S.
Thank you so much Lisa, for signing my guestbook...on my caringbridge site.

IF you or your family,
ever need someone to talk to,
Someone to vent to,
Someone to cry to,
Someone to just listen to...
whatever,
If you or your family needs anything, let me know.

As you read, I'm fighting ALL (Acute lymphoblastic leukemia) but found Non hodgkins lymphoma in 2001-2003. As of today, My ALL isn't getting any better, nor any worse. In April-July, my cancer had metastisized to behind my left eye, down my spine and in the spinal fluid, which caused several herniated and slipt discs, It is now also in my stomach/abdomen. 12 lymphnodes are affected in my abdomen, and the lining of my stomach is also affected.

BUT, WE WILL KEEP FIGHTING!
Regardless of what God's plan for Eden And I, If he wants us to come back up to our home in heaven, so be it. But, if not, Thats fine too.

I'm not afraid to die,
I'm afraid of leaving my son!!

sorry this got so long,
thanks again!!!

www.caringbridge.org/visit/lisaforss
zachandme2001@hotmail.com

 
At 11:29 AM, Blogger Kim said...

I've been following your daughter's page for a while and keep her and the other Warriers in my prayers! I think that Eden's outlook is a wonderful thing...I have to believe that there are angels that whisper to children who are faced with leaving their earthly home - to make them feel safe and unafraid. I think it is a good thing that she is not afraid - that will allow her to live her life to the fullest - full steam ahead, without fear! My daughter loves watching Princess DIaries and there is a quote formt eh movie that says: "Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgment that something is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever but the cautious do not live at all." Eden is one courageous little girl!!

Continued prayers -

Kim

 
At 2:03 PM, Blogger Olivia said...

Eden,

You are a true marvel and wise beyond your years. You have more courage than most people three times your age. Thank you for helping me to remember the important things in life and love.

You are all in my thoughts and prayers. My fingers (and toes) are crossed for positive test results.

Thank you for sharing your story.

Olivia

 
At 10:29 AM, Anonymous Mindy said...

Thank you for sharing your conversation with Eden. I cannot explain why, but I feel that Ian knows Jeret and was there with him to hold his hand and say something like "Hey, know what? This is really cool, you gotta come with me." I drink in anything these kids say in hopes that it gives me some insight as to where my Ian is. I miss him terribly and feel so sad that these other parents have to go through this same feeling. well, now who's rambling? : ) Thank you for putting this out here.

 

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